Thursday, February 24, 2005

The Me Nobody Knows

- I have a fear of failure.
- I’m emotionally unstable.
- I have an inferiority complex.
- I don’t believe in love at first sight.
- I believe in true love.
- I regret ever being in love (up to now), but I can’t wait to be in love (for real)
- I cross out things in my agenda with a ruler.
- The hangers in my closet have to have the same distance in between.
- I can’t stand when a paper is not stapled correctly.
- I like self-help and body image books.
- I’m going through an identity crisis (just as every teenager), and I’m trying to figure out who I am.
- I cry at least five times a week, usually at night.
- I read before I go to sleep.
- I am infatuated with pens and writing utensils.
- I hate having choices.
- I’m easily intimidated.
- I’m obsessed with #24.
- I cry in most movies. In the ones I don’t it’s because I either slept through it, or didn’t understand it.
- I have a “Goal Journal” where I keep track of myself.
- I constantly have food cravings.
- I detest trying clothes on.
- My scrapbooks (one for each year since 2000, which I have 4 and currently working on the 5th) are each dedicated to a different person.
- I’m gullible and vulnerable.
- I swallow my feelings and smile, but I often choke.
- I pretend to be strong but I’m extremely fragile.
- I’ve kept all the letters I’ve received since 1999.
- I quit swimming because I’m stupid and I regret it.
- I often put others in front before myself.
- I have several empty journals waiting to be written on.
- I have a million projects started and none of them done.
- I abhor reverse psychology.
- My mentality often collides with that of others.
- I carry too much weight on myself and it’s taking a toll on me, and I hate admitting it.
- I have extremely high expectations for myself.
- I love randomness.
- I hate my birthday.
- I despise goodbyes.
- I sleep too much, I eat too much, and I worry too much.
- I’m a night person.
- I love looking at pictures.
- I’m not physically comfortable with myself.
- I enjoy challenges (physical, emotional, mental).
- I love to dance, even if it is without music.
- I don’t consider myself to have any special talents.
- I’m addicted to MSN Messenger.
- There is not one single day in my life in which I don’t listen to music.
- I don’t like roses or chocolates.
- I’m a procrastinator.
- I work better under pressure.
- I’m not afraid to say that I don’t know something, I’m not afraid to ask questions.
- I hate it when I make the same mistake twice.
- I get upset when my heart controls my mind.
- I wake up in the middle of the night to write down my dreams.
- I brush my teeth at least five times a day.
- I lose patience easily.
- I dislike pets.
- I’m afraid of being emotionally attached to someone, because I always end up hurt.
- I love to read, write and doodle.
- I try to learn from other people’s mistakes. Sometimes I make them even after being warned.
- I don’t like personality labels.
- I’m stubborn and opinionated.
- I collect stationary as well as memories.
- Lately, I’ve started to lose my motivations.
- Happiness, however, is my impetus.
- I’m good at hiding my insecurities.
- I’m aloof and easily distracted.
- I’m sorry I’m flawed, but so is everybody else.
- I have skinned, bleeding knees. I can’t stand up before I’m already on the ground again.
- I collapse when I’m heartbroken, hurt or when someone hurts me.
- I collapsed today.

Sunday, February 20, 2005

The Aftermath of Valentine's Day



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